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In defense of tools

I have recently moved homes. Everything is different and all the processes to be happy, healthy, and going strong have changed. This wasn’t going from one standard apartment with a robust apartment complex to another standard apartment with a robust apartment complex. I did not go from one americana mid-century kitchen, combo toilet and bathroom, and on site laundry room to the same. I went from a flat in an 1800s victorian gingerbread house to a house share in another 1800s victorian gingerbread house. Both places have a lot of construction and incremental modernization history. Both places have their challenges. […]

A skill of being, in one way

Sometimes, you don’t know you are preparing yourself. This was not the case when I took a weekend intensive. The class was aiming for being ready to engage in a very intimate conversation. The kind of encounter that can happen at any time and in any place, which goes a lot better the more you have awareness and boundaries. No, I am not going to say what the class was specifically for. You can go take the class yourself. Any class. Pay your teachers. I want to talk about my personal feelings, observations, and thoughts around one exercise that was […]

A type of practice: Why I play with my tarot deck (4 of 4)

This is the 4th and last in a 4 part series. I hope by the end of the series, you might understand some ways these games can add to your practices. I want to share my personal opinions and feelings about 3 different card game adaptations using tarot cards that I have played with my friends, and then have a 4th general post about a specific mindset games can help you visit. The games are based on Go Fish (1), Crazy 8s (2), and War (3). This is my perspective, and the people I learned to play these games with […]

A type of practice: Why I play with my tarot deck (3 of 4)

This is the 3rd in a 4 part series. I hope by the end of the series, you might understand some ways these games can add to your practices. Part 1 and Part 2 are here, respectively. I want to share my personal opinions and feelings about 3 different card game adaptations using tarot cards that I have played with my friends, and then have a 4th general post about a specific mindset games can help you visit. The games are based on Go Fish (1), Crazy 8s (2), and War (3). This is my perspective, and the people I […]

A type of practice: Why I play with my tarot deck (2 of 4)

This post has been sitting in draft this whole time, along with the two other related posts. I had been stuck on the second game write up, which felt inadequate and trivial against the realities of life right now. Even though I know there are ways in which it is not. I finally realized the way through my block was to reverse the series and explain myself first. My apologies for the delay. There are many definitions of magic, but one I see often enough in public workshops is the idea that magic is going into liminal space, making a […]

A type of practice: Playing with my tarot deck (1 of 4)

The world is being difficult right now. That is often true. It may be frivolous of me to be writing about simpler things but I wasn’t going to be writing about the difficult things so I may as well share what I have to share. This will be a 4 part series that I hope to update once a week until the series is done. I hope by the end of the series, you might understand some ways these games can add to your practices. I want to share my personal opinions and feelings about 3 different card game adaptations […]

Trust Art

When I was small, all long-lashed dark eyes and shyness and feathers of night hair, I was taken on a plane across the Atlantic to see family. In the long between of the flight, the crew let us littles get some wiggle out by helping collect items after a meal. I was given, folded from an after dinner mint by a passenger who looked like my nisei kindergarten teacher, a bright green origami crane. It was wonderful. My tiny world of home, church, school, and carefully being taught to fear strangers opened up a little bit more to the idea […]

Be Here Now

“Run” a friend was told by Xango during a private possessive trance consultation. I heard about it because the friend could not stop talking about it. They examined it. They deconstructed it. They worried their intellect all over it, about the deeper meaning, about the connotations. What they did not do was RUN. They missed the pounding drumbeat of their heart and the boom of their stride. They were not reminded of the fundamental dance of one foot in front of the other and throwing their body forward with will and joy and fierceness more strong than a walk. They […]

Focus

“Walk!” my beloved 2nd year teacher yelled down the walkway as I ran past the railings to the stairs down to recess. My schooling was very mindful to instruct me what to do as an action, not a negation. This was in stark contrast to the litany of forbidden things from home and church, highlighting and drawing attention to the wrong instead of the right. My teacher unschooled the toddler ‘No’ out of me. “Radishes grow fast” my researcher suggested for my limited time internship. I had results to show, and earned the scholarship. “But, what do you like? How […]